Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Friday, December 20, 2013

All I want is closure

photo credit: David Blackwell. via photopin cc


Searching for a job post graduation can be what feels like, trying to break a wall with a plastic hammer. I think about every recent grad can agree with me that it is no easy task. It has to be the most annoying things in the world. You begin to feel like that money you spent on college could have been used to open a business or been put to use on something better. I mean do really need to spend so much money on college. I digress! 

Found a job in a place that I absolutely adore and thought that being there would ensure me another job in the same building. Oh did I mention that the job I have now is temporary so I'm still on the search. 

Yea that kind of thang where you are praying to God that you get pretty much the permanent opportunity of your dreams.

Well since being on the search I've had a couple interviews that were pretty okay. I mean I was qualified for all of them. Though, the same thing has been popping up on my mind. Where did I miss the memo that if you are not qualified for said job you don't get an email? I'm not asking for a long phone call or a visit to my home to notify me that I didn't get the job. 

Please just send me an email saying sorry, you don't qualify for this job because there is something better out there for you

I don't know, is that not a common thing to do? I need some answers. I pretty much can't deal with loose ends in anything I do. I'm the kind of girl that likes closure. Am I the only one? 

Which leads me to another topic....

That would have to be another post...

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Dear Life

You haven't been easy and I'm understanding that this is simply part of my journey. Some days it feels worst than it ever does and I try to understand that. Really what is life without the highs and lows?

Why does media and everything else make us think that you are supposed to be perfect. Shit, I want that "perfect" stuff. Life why aren't you perfect?? 

I want to be able to love myself unconditionally. 
I want to have a career I LOVE!
I want to meet some pretty awesome people.
I want to be healthy.
I want to feel like the prettiest girl in the world(I used to feel that some days but now it's been hard).
I want to meet an amazing man.
I want to connect with him ^ and it feel like I'm on top of the world.
I want to get married on a beach.
I want to own a people living space.
I want to have 3-4 children.
I want to teach them everything I know and more.


I just want you to be perfect life. FUCK!


I wish that outside sources didn't affect who we are and what we desire to become. Often times we want what others have and don't appreciate what we are given by the higher being. It's not easy, but it seems like it.

Life I'm just asking you to guide me in the right direction. 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Is writing for me?

Sometimes I feel like I'm not a good enough writer. It feels like maybe I should give up on this dream of being a great blogger. I mean I enjoy it but I don't love it enough to write every day. There are women who write amazing pieces with lots of great content, but me...I've been told I don't write enough. Though, for me I know I don't always want to read a blog post that's super long. I just don't have the attention span. Especially if the post is something that doesn't interest me with some visuals and shit.

I'm a visual person for crying out loud. I just want to make great shit and be great but it seems so hard in a world where you feel like your enthusiasm isn't what it needs to be. 

This shit has me considering taking a break from writing. Maybe come back for the new year or maybe not. How about I take a whole year of come 2014...maybe.

Ugh I don't know I'm considering taking a break from my other blog and just devoting my time to building a better me and documenting it. 

Maybe the world is not ready for what I have to offer. Maybe I'm just not ready. It's not hard but it sure as hell ain't easy. 


Fuck I just want to be great! 

Sunday, October 27, 2013

The going gets rough...

It's one of those days; I think which makes being a Queen apart of the journey. The time when you question your purpose and exsistence in others lives and theirs in yours. When after the hurt you decided to still be vulnerable. When being vulnerable hurts all the more than holding onto your past hurts. Well at least it feels like it.

When your life is moving in the right direction and you are receiving many blessings but it doesn't feel like it. When learning to love yourself is just not fu*king easy. When you don't feel complete unless you have someone to relate to and share your love with. After all you have to be whole to understand and appreciate love. But it's just not that easy. 

The days when the going, it gets rough! When you don't feel beautiful and you haven't in quite some time. When the scars of your battle wounds come to the surface. When you become unhappy of the direction that your life is going because you are not accustomed to change. Change is NEEDED! 

Life feels like work instead of a blessing. It's rough living life and understanding. Be this, be that, think positive, wait for your timing! Time also waits for no man, so why should I wait for time? 

When the going gets rough why do I feel bad about the downs to my up? Damn you society; I just want: to love me, start a business, meet new and awesome people, build great friendships with them, have beautiful dates with an amazing gentleman, be the best me, fall in love, get married, travel, buy a home, create a family, build on my knowledge, appreciate my beauty, look beautiful and feel it, leave a legacy, be a positive role model for young girls.

Can I live? 



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Sunday, December 2, 2012

Just sit

As I learn more and more about the traditional methods of meditation I understand more of the concept of just sitting. It has caused me to be a lot more mindful in most of what I do. Though, I have not mastered the art of just sitting I can say I am much closer to becoming more at peace; to becoming the Queen I am.

While on a visit to the Target First Saturdays at Brooklyn Museum yesterday, I came across these pieces and I had to share with you all. I immediately fell in love.






The way art speaks to me and says so many things is just amazing. I have been thinking I need to find a way to get some kind of museum membership. Hmmmm, maybe.
As well I would like to invite you to become one with yourself and follow the methods of just sitting. How you may ask... Find a quiet place, a pillow and just sit. Focus on your breath and each part of your body. Try your best to not let wandering thoughts enter, though if they should, do not reject them. Allow them to come, acknowledge it is there, and continue focusing on your breathing. The thoughts will then go away on their own.

Become Mindful!
Have you meditated?
Will you practice just sitting?

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

First Time Love!!

Today was a good day! Met up with another creative at Connecticut Muffin today. We spoke about loads of things, it was so awesome; from natural hair to traveling and society on a whole (that's a whole other topic).

The best thing of all, it was my first time actually buying anything in Connecticut Muffin and I opted for a Vanilla Chai Latte. and that was the BEST CHOICE EVER!!!


I think I fell in love. I'm through with Hot Cocoa...the latte hit the ultimate spot, perfect just in time for the holidays. It was like a perfect mix of vanilla and nutmeg; giving me that eggnog taste and feel. I love it! So I will definitely be getting in touch with the folks over at Connecticut Muffin a lot more.



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Monday, November 12, 2012

Have you reset your life?

I recently spoke about joining KimberlyLuxe and friends on a 3 month journey to self. It came at no better time, as I was dealing with a whole bunch of crap and was just in need of a reset. I am not going to lie I procrastinated for a while about actually starting, then my inner self spoke up. I think it was meant for me to do it. Along the months the journey for me has been a great one. I have been able to dig deeper into me and it feels good. Along with my meditation and improving my being I feel almost invincible. Why? Because I have been learning about myself on a deeper aspect and I am loving every moment of it and myself.

If you have not heard of it or where procrastinating too, you can still reset. Head over to KimberlyLuxe.com and start your journey. Your mind, body and soul will truly thank you. I promise, live that queen in you.



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It is real!!!

I'm convinced love is really out there. Though, I wish to find love, I will let it find me. When God is ready for me to receive the blessing of this kind of love I will receive it. I'm on my journey...

Watching these videos did it for me; OMG! After watching them I was truly convinced that love is real and it is out there. These two videos stood out to me because 1) my dream wedding is a destination wedding, I love my trini's dem and 2) the natural hair all in the video, plus it made me teary eyed. Check the, out below:

<iframe src="http://player.vimeo.com/video/22107624?badge=0" width="500" height="281" frameborder="0" webkitAllowFullScreen mozallowfullscreen allowFullScreen></iframe> <p><a href="http://vimeo.com/22107624">Live,Laugh,Love Michael + Luanne</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user3888261">Pinnacle Bride</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com">Vimeo</a>.</p>


<iframe src="http://player.vimeo.com/video/26572613?badge=0" width="500" height="281" frameborder="0" webkitAllowFullScreen mozallowfullscreen allowFullScreen></iframe> <p><a href="http://vimeo.com/26572613">Shaakira + Shaun</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user3888261">Pinnacle Bride</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com">Vimeo</a>.</p>

If your interested in viewing more love stories, head on over to the Pinnacle Bride blog




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Friday, November 2, 2012

Giving Life


Ever since I've heard this song it has been giving me major life.
The words of the song and the beats....Super Dope!
Solange is back at it again!
Gotta love her.